what do i have to do to be picked, to be chosen from a crowded, to not be said no to, to be good enough for people to notice me, to say yes i want you instead of him, what do i have to do to get what ive wanted for years? it comes so easy to some ppl, they dont even have to do anything to get one, i work my ass off do everything i can and still told im not good enough, hes better, just flat out no…am i ever gonna be chosen? or will i just be left alone forever…
I want her because she wants me, i want her because she gets me, i want her because she needs some fun, i want her because shes beautiful, cute, sexy, hot, pretty, i want her because she knows how to have fun, i want her because shes different like me, i want her because shes more like me then she knows, i want her because shes awesome, cool, smart, fun, talented, i want her because i cant have her, i want her because i wanna make her happy, i want her because she deserves better, i want her so badly…
im thinking of her now, thinking of her crying because of the past that she cant forget, the past that wont leave her alone, thinking of her reaching for the future but not bing able to reach, thinking of her thinking of me, thinking of her crying to me that shes sorry when she has nothing to b sorry for, thinking of her all day and all night, thinking of her and me bing together, thinking of her and me holding hands, cuddling while watching tv together, thinking of her life and how shes been through it all and needs away out, thinking of her using me for her way out, thinking of her finnally bing happy and safe from the world, in my arms i will not let u b hurt,
Why me? why does it always happen to me? it just comes so easy to some people they barly do anything then dont care about it once they have it and r bored with it in a week. i work my ass off to get one for months and still told no. now i got my hopes up again, i just gotta wait for this one to let go of the past and then i will finally have one, i wont be left out anymore, its my turn to have one, ive earned it.
I am a person, a person who will do anything for my friends and family. A person who does extremely stupid things and love every second of it. I am fucked in the head, i say things that people wouldn’t dream of saying, and ill say them to any1. I make fun of stupid things and people, if you don’t like it…that sucks. I couldn’t care what people say or think of me, i know who i am and what i do and if your a real friend you know what is true or not about me. I am 16 years old and i know more about people then most others do in a life time. I believe that there are in fact stupid questions. I believe that there is good in everyone and i believe that everyone deserves a chance at whatever they want to do.
